Why me? Why God me?! I kept wondering. There is a reason, a good one, why me.
At the end of the day, you have to be just like what they expect you to be, a strong woman.
What if I’m not as strong as they think I am? What if break down right now?
But I can’t.
I […]
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“We Seemed So Strong….We’ve Been There & Gone”
Published by December 9th, 2007 in Personal, Music and Feelings. 7 CommentsI admit! Call me a spoiled brat or whatever, but I am a girl who likes to be spoiled.
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My friends (Guys & Girls) spoil me endlessly. My guy-friends showers me with attention.
Yes, I love attention and who doesn’t?
The thing is; he drives me crazy when I don’t get his full attention! […]
My nails.
Or that’s just what he thinks.
Wondering to go a head with or not. Thinking all day.
Feeling a little bit down. Depression was getting into me. I called her. Want to go do a run? She suggested coffee. But everywhere is crowded! Lets drive to the airport.
THE AIRPORT. This has to be a sign. NO, NO, NO!
Not a sign.
Maybe it […]
I had a dream that I was shopping for something I’ve never shopped for before; a handgun.
I woke up thinking about the dream. I can’t remember why I was buying a gun! I kept thinking but just couldn’t make sense of it. All I remember is my holding up the handgun and pointing it at […]
Seven Years After……
Published by September 9th, 2007 in Personal, Relationships and Past. 5 CommentsThe Avenues Mall, Friday morning, rushing out before it gets busy. The cell ringing, laughing out loud at his jokes, wondering where I parked. Second floor, heading towards the escalator, going up. Still laughing at his words, looking up, thinking I know this face.
I froze. It was him. I smiled, forgot all what I was […]
She lied to me.
OK! Maybe she didn’t!
So far, everything she said actually did happen. Back in January and when I wrote that post, I didn’t write some specific details she told me. The past few months, I’ve lived those details. Eight months ago, she said I’d lose my grandmother within months. Just recently, I lost […]
I have a human alarm. Yes, a friend of mine volunteered to be my human alarm. For the past few months, he’s been calling long distance every morning just few minutes before my alarm is due to ring ring. Is it bad that I’m used to my human alarm?
Nothing new with work. Everyone around me […]
“We Read to Know We Are Not Alone”
Published by July 30th, 2007 in Personal, Life and Books. 12 CommentsEarly mornings, waking up, grabbing a book, jogging towards the coffee shop, one cafe latte skimmed milk please.
The same couch I sit on every time, toasted bagel with fat free cream cheese, flipping through the pages of this week’s novel, one book one week.
Spreading cream cheese on my multi-grain bagel, sipping my latte, crossing my […]
He thinks I am calmer now compared to few months back. I asked for further explanation. He explained “from your posts, you seem calmer”. I laughed. I am not calmer. I probably have more drama in my life than few months ago when life seemed a bit boring. Yet there is this thing that is […]