I found the below post saved as a draft in my folder. It was probably sitting there for over two months. I guess it’s time to publish it although I know for a fact that I will be getting a lot of hate comments. So a head’s up for those who would write such a comment, I will not delete your comment yet it will not change the way I think.
Once, few years ago, I used to be a strong believer.
I believed that I am one lucky girl. I believed I am a lucky Muslim/Kuwaiti girl; I used to.
I used to think that one day I will grow to a stronger woman. A woman who would bring up children that are believers as well. Children that believe in the great religion we have. Children that believe in the great nation we belong to.
Few years ago, I used to be a strong believer. A believer who prayed 5 times a day. A believer who fasted and dreamt of performing her pilgrim. Now, this all has changed. I am no more a believer.
I lost my beliefs. I lost it all…
it’s very saddening to hear someone say that bas inshallah u persevere through this, never stop believing “فإن مع العسر يسرا”
I dont ” believe ” you :I
all of us are born believers.
many people lose that during the course of their lives.. But when they find themselves losing everything they had, or when they feel depressed with no one to talk to, the only person they can turn to is god.
Warm thoughts going out to you.
Nobody should judge you, its a phase many people go through.
I, for one, have been having the exact same thoughts as you and I’m going through the same thing. I feel wierd since its strange for me to feel this way, yet I’m hoping its a phase that will pass.
This post has been in my mind for the past week, but I will keep my comments to myself, because it will turn into a long one, maybe one day I will share it with you.
Did anything change since you stopped beleiving!!! I wish you didn’t give up on your beleives just for the wrong guy. Isn’t the reason that we are here is to be tested? I mean to to be paitient and try to be the best of our-selves. I know somewhere deep inside you there is the seed that you grew to be a plant don’t just give up on it. With it you can do better and be better. Don’t let your body needs controls your soul.
Good luck and give it some good amount of time thinking. If you think you have enough problems to fill the world. There are people with more to fill the universe ;).