Dear Diary

Why do I feel so down lately? I’ve been trying very hard to get out of this mood but keep failing to do so.

I blame the heat, the Kuwaiti Society, and the idiot drivers on the road. I blame the on-going news about war, Israel, and the US Administration. I blame relationships, him, and him.

I blame my job for that I hate very much. I blame my family for going on vacation and leaving me all alone.

I blame him for not telling me what I need to hear. I blame him for being busy all the time.
I blame the feeling I got late last night. I blame the thoughts in my head.

I blame myself for being employed and not going to Lebanon before. I blame her for what she did.

I blame them for being happy, and I blame him for caring so much about me. I blame myself.

21 Responses to “Dear Diary”


  1. 1 Jewaira Jul 31st, 2006 at 11:47 am

    That is alot of blame and too many Hims.
    To blame gives us momentarily relief; it gives someone else the responsibility for our feelings.
    It’s ok.
    But in a while, you must take hold of those blames and throw them out the window.
    Some things we can change, other things we do what we can do.

    Big hug to you. That helps

  2. 2 Purgatory Jul 31st, 2006 at 12:06 pm

    At least you made some sense at the end blaming yourself, because that is the main source of your problem. Always remember that you will never be satisfied unless you blame yourself for your shortcomings and fix those prior to dealing with any external obstacles, otherwise you will always be stuck in quicksand.

  3. 3 error Jul 31st, 2006 at 12:24 pm

    ya36e el 3afya him, you sound like wa7da 7annana

    on the other hand blame the system

  4. 4 error Jul 31st, 2006 at 12:35 pm

    its in the air
    negative energy is all around plus oxygen level is low these days seriously

  5. 5 SpiKeY Jul 31st, 2006 at 12:35 pm

    lotsa balmes..but u shouldnt blame them…blmae urself that ur thinking about all that stuff…

    coz ur thinking about it ur in a bad mood..try to do sumthing new..somthing to make u forget ..and enjoy ur time..

  6. 6 Shopaholic Q8eya Jul 31st, 2006 at 12:39 pm

    J.,
    *HUGS*
    I’m not really blaming anybody, I’m just complaining,

    Purg,
    Do you blame urself?

    error,
    I might be “7anana”, and the “Him” doesn’t refer to the same perosn.

    spiky,
    I’m trying

  7. 7 Purgatory Jul 31st, 2006 at 12:59 pm

    I always do and look forward, am leagues ahead of you in this field, you should start.

  8. 8 Tooomz Jul 31st, 2006 at 3:13 pm

    I hope you feel better soon. Did it feel better letting it out?

  9. 9 Mini Я. Jul 31st, 2006 at 3:14 pm

    Hmm…I got the chlorine. Let’s chlorinate the gene pool & cull out the worse of them? How’s that? ;)
    Cheer up hon, life isn’t THAT bad after all..well..sometimes.

  10. 10 mashael alhajeri Jul 31st, 2006 at 4:15 pm

    nice blog..check out mine..I think you will find it very interesting…tell me what you think:)

  11. 11 Alia Jul 31st, 2006 at 4:17 pm

    & I blame the whole list too for letting you down

    متى العرس؟

  12. 12 Delicately Realistic Jul 31st, 2006 at 4:25 pm

    I know how u feel….u need a distraction.

  13. 13 Anonymous Jul 31st, 2006 at 4:48 pm

    laish kila mikt2ba? way mal azne6ich

  14. 14 Anonymous Jul 31st, 2006 at 7:02 pm

    khaleteeni abalim men kether el blames hahaha..way ayanin.. bs sij ur needy.. get a hubby or something!

  15. 15 tweety Jul 31st, 2006 at 9:35 pm

    ana asharkech nesbah kbera men elblamat ma3a elfarq that i dont have ( him ) so far which is worse

  16. 16 Baroque Aug 1st, 2006 at 1:07 am

    i blame myself for reading ur blog and getting depressed ;p

    miss ya! 3ad mo kil ma i pop in to say hello i see depression, and “bad” action..

    i want good, fun action with a pinch of drama ;p

  17. 17 Shopaholic Q8eya Aug 1st, 2006 at 10:26 am

    Purg,
    Inzain!

    toomz,
    It did, It did!

    mini R,
    Alrite ;P

    M. Alhajeri,
    Thanks, Ok ;P

    alia,
    After his next Bday?!

    DR,
    I need to fly away, that’s what I need.

    anonymous,
    Yala do it!

    anonymous2,
    I don’t need a hubby…

    tweety,
    worse? trust me it’s much better!

    baroque,
    Sms me your number over there

  18. 18 sexygoba Aug 1st, 2006 at 7:48 pm

    I know how u feel. It sucks. I can’t do nething about it. Its irrelivant but relates to my feelings: He’s such an asshole to me and I stopped talking to him now because his last words WEERE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MEAN and proved that I meant nothing!

    :(((

  19. 19 bOnaViita Aug 2nd, 2006 at 4:45 am

    I think its mostly from the damn weather ..
    hope u feel better soOn ;*

  20. 20 DiiGMaa Aug 2nd, 2006 at 8:48 am

    Think Happy Thoughts…
    Happy thoughts..

    Now inhale
    aannnnnd
    exhale

    cheer up love.. be a little british for the day and blame it on the weather.. and then have a lovely cup of tea ;***

  21. 21 yougogirl Aug 2nd, 2006 at 4:48 pm

    dont forget to blame the eskimos

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