I was chatting with a blogger on msn last night when they mentioned that they feel like I haven’t been myself lately, especially after coming back from London. They were totally right. I don’t feel I have been myself either. Now, when I think about it, it makes total sense. How can be the same old shopa with everything that is happening around me? My first day back and I am totally devastated with the death of someone dear. It has been almost two months and still I don’t think I am over it. Not to mention losing another friend last week.
Then, there is the society. AHH! Will you people stop judging others? Now, I am used to people judging me for the way I think, dress, act; but what I can’t understand is how some people are judging me for grieving the death of a friend just because it’s a guy-friend. So now people want to control how we feel towards certain things and people?
My career hasn’t been stable either. No matter what, it seems like some people still have major problems with you being a woman working around them. EGHH!
Family, ahh family. I don’t think I can take it anymore. I love them to death but still, I need my space. Why can’t we live in our own apartments in Kuwait? Wouldn’t that be just great? I miss my school days; miss my friends and my stupid professors. I miss my life back then. I can’t handle the stress of living in Kuwait no more. Okay! I admit it, I am homesick and for this reason Heely, I haven’t been myself lately.
I’m sorry for your loss baby girl and I really hope things will get better soon… just hang in there.
/me is singing:
The sun’ll come out tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on’Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow! Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!
You’re always A day
A way!
My inner child was singing…hahahhaa..yalla Smile 7abebety and Happy Eid :*
i missed you, your old self
oh well, like they say
“To see a rainbow it must rain”
and
“when it’s dark outside you see the stars”
what i am trying to say is that c’est la vie..
welcome back shopa.. don’t pull another one on us again.. ;P
I’m sorry for your loss dear.
It’s ok, there are highs and there are lows, inshAllah your on your way back up to a high.
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i am terribly sorry for your loss.
tell me about it…god i miss having my own place:(
“Why can’t we live in our own apartments in Kuwait?”
“Haw! Binty it-hid bait-ha, o mokan-ha witgoom ti6lu3 taskin ibshi8ga ibroo7a la 7aseeb wala ra8eeb? Laaa i3yoony laa.. ishbigooloon innas bacher? Malha ahal? Ma3indaha bait? Bacher iyee wa7id idish 3alaich willa yithbi7ich ismilla 3alaich… laa 3ad shoofay.. iyaani wiyach ityeebeen 6aree ay 6ul3a willa shi8ga.. ee 7u66eeny 3ala balich zain! tara 3umurha ma9arat! …hatha illy nagu9 ba3ad! Laa… gi3day ib-baitich bain ahalich o 6owayfich wallah yastir 3alaich”, blah blah blah mumble mumble *dirty worried looks* -3baid’s Grandmother
Ah.. Kuwait ;]
/me singing with jelly belly:
Tomorrow, Tomorrow
I luv you, tomorrow ;*
charisma,
I miss the old one too.
I know c’est la vie but still I have to bitch about it.
DR,
thanks.
mello,
What shall we do? everyone misses their own places.
3baid,
LOOOOL,
You managed to make me smile while other friends have been trying since last night ;P
I hope you feel better.. You’ll adapt as we all have
aww 7abeebti I didn’t know you’re going through all that. I’m sorry for your loss. Hope you feel better soon inshallah
Shopa, i can only say that i dont feel any less than how you are feeling,, i would try to ignore it usually cos ppl would think i like living in constant depression,, but my heart is feeling with this post so much…
miss you sweetie..
the apartment thing ” my dream of that is not dead to me, i will try till i die lol”
heely,
I’m sure I will, I just don’t feel like going through it.
papillona,
thanks babe
exceer,
I am 100% sure that you among all people feel the same ;* I miss you too, sorry I have been missing your calls lately but so many things are happening. I promise, I will give you a call SOON and we’ll do something.
sorry to hear that shopa dear :/
hope you feel better soon and get back to your old self. don’t pay attention to those judging you.
as for not being able to have your own apartment, well, that was one of the reasons i formed kwsgs blog!
how are you feeling now hun?
flam,
Thanks babe.
papillona,
not good at all. Like I needed more, my cat died hours ago. He was suffering from a kidney failure for the past week. In addition, I haven’t slept for three days now. Have been at work since 6 am, won’t be home before 6 pm. Can I be any worse?
oh god shopa..
hang in there.. :/
i hope whatever u’re going thru clears up soon…
i’m sorry your cat died..
sorry for your loss shopa.
hang in there. It’ll clear out eventually. hopefully soon.
charisma,
Thanks babe ;*
hanan,
Thanks dear, it’s alreday getting better.